daily reads.
23.10.03
// 13:59

i've got flu... at least i think so.. how does flu feel like anyway? i've got this weird pain in my throat and almost everything tastes weird... and i feel weird too. blah. guess its my fault knowin im sick still goin to macs for happymeal haha :) i just had fishMcdippers strawberry yogurt and coke. after that went to hwachu... its kinda nice but i felt kinda sick and i was so hot i left pretty soon after that... and i had a strawberry lollipop too :) aha... okayys urmm... saw darylyap there... dont think he saw me tho. its kinda strange u dont see acs boys there haha. mm... wonder which jc i should aim for. sigh. wish i can go somewhere my friends are goin for the first 3 months... my keyboards cocked up again... all the weird letters are appearin... nvm im sick of typin... gotta study geog... byee...

I closed my eyes, drew back the curtain
To see for certain, what I thought I knew.
Far, far away, someone was weeping,
But the world was sleeping.
Any dream will do.

I wore my coat, with golden lining,
Bright colours shining, wonderful and new.
And in the east, the dawn was breaking,
And the world was waking.
Any dream will do.


A crash of drums, a flash of light,
My golden coat, flew out of sight.
The colours faded into darkness,
I was left alone.


May I return to the beginning?
The light is dimming, and the dream is too.
The world and I, we are still waiting,
Still hestating.
Any dream will do.


Any dream will do.

A crash of drums, a flash of light,
My golden coat, flew out of sight.
The colours faded into darkness,
I was left alone.


May I return to the beginning?
The light is dimming, and the dream is too.
The world and I, we are still waiting,
Still hestating.
Any dream will do.


Any dream, any dream, .... any dream will do
Any dream, any dream, .... any dream will do



oops by the way...

Olevels countdown: 9 days


daily reads.
22.10.03
// 10:03

being fat is not an option. FAT.... arghhh im fat fat fat.... :( fat is a depressing stage in my life. well least i've lost some.


daily reads.
20.10.03
// 16:57

new blog.. BEAUTIFUL aha :) neways went school study today. wasnt that bad. o levels comin. sighh... yup... haha i saw this REALLY hot guy at piano... he is so cute... he looks like a younger version of uttsada... shoulda took a pic of him on my phone. well would be kinda obvious tho cos he was standin like next to me... ahh sighh i want a guy who looks just like him! :( well.. guess i can carry on dreaming heh... no one will notice me unless i lose weight.. ya gotta face the truth.


daily reads.
13.10.03
// 16:32

ohh ya... just to write something down again... on last sunday morning... on my usual cycling trippie.. i saw a snail! :( it was pretty small... dont ask how i saw it. how shortsighted i am i still could see it.. sigh. i SCREAMED. yes. in public :) hee. humiliating huh... i was so scared of the snail i almost couldnt breathe properly.. heh. i remember the last last sunday i thought i ran over a snail... sigh. so scary :( i hope i never see a snail again!! im gonna bring salt the next time i go cycling... snails better pray their not in sight... heh heh peiyan the snail killer! :)


daily reads.
// 16:27

i got the most beautiful gown yesterday... hee :) it has this big big long flowing heavy skirt something like cinderella's... and its a bustier dress... so pretty :) its white with blue beads... hee. gonna wear it for cousin's wedding... but i gotta slim down :( cos the boob area the bony part below is too small :( well... a girl's gotta do something do look sexy i guess. hahaa :) and im so happy... somebody's getting me POTC! whoooo hee :) kaes byeee i gotta study hee.


daily reads.
10.10.03
// 15:02

ITS MY BIRTHDAY TODAY!! haha a year has passed again oh so quickly... just a few more weeks to the Os.. feel so old heh


daily reads.
// 15:01

xx i am superman :)


daily reads.
8.10.03
// 16:59

NINETEEN POINTS!! :) hee... JC JC JC first three months haha.... HAPPINESS!!! ooooohhh baby yeah.


daily reads.
5.10.03
// 18:49

gah! i am gettin depressed... depression is taking over my mind... the beautiful day has faded away... life is getting sucky... so sucky ): my prelims are so dead... *sob. i dont think i can get below 20 points... sighh... what crap is this...? what happened to the primary 6 gal with BRAINS? GAH! depression depression depression.... cant i have this urge to study... only if i could turn back time.. and start mixing with the correct crowds again.... but that is not mine to choose... the days are flying past... 4 weeks more to the Os... why am i still slacking?? why do i not feel the urge to study. life has changed for me. i am no more the girl i was long ago. what changed me... i do not know. for now i shall be contented with the memory of times lost... looking forward to my bag and bottle... sigh. maybe time will pass by slowly... maybe... if only.


daily reads.
// 15:19

its a beautiful day!!! :) hee i got 36/40 for chem MCQ!!! hahahaaa :) overjoyed. sighhh almost all the ppl i know got like below 20 pts for prelims??? shit i gotta get below 20 too... well perhaps i would.. cos my progress report last one was like 27 i think? so it should hav improved by least ONE grade hopefully heh :) gotta start studyin too. after my bdae. hahahahahah :) SLACK MAN!


daily reads.
2.10.03
// 18:20

my mom bitches so much i have fantasies of pushing her off the balcony and hearing the crack sound and seeing all the goo fly out and i wont give a damn!! sheesh should hav agreed with dad that he should divorce her.. she freakin PISSES me off damn it. says what i no big no small?? damn it shes the one who bloody tries to strangle me and squeezes my arms so damn hard and then she'll say i hav no right to push her off cos its rude. HELLO? whos the RUDE ONE? bloody ass. one day she'll regret this. i am sorry to say that i hav only not pushed her off yet because killing someone is the ultimate sin God says we're not supposed to kill anyone i guess. sigh. only God makes me slightly sane. whats her freakin ass prob? damn it ARGHHH... sometimes i cant stand her i just wanna conk her out and run into my room and lock the door... and THROW GRAPES IN HER DAMN FACE damn it. if only daddy was here. sheesh man she keeps thinking that shes right. and she always lies to me. what kind of mom is she? a SHITTY mom. how can your mother be your role model if she cant even keep her DAMN PROMISES? fuck life. f everyone damn it. one day she had better keep her stupid mouth shut cos i cant stand it anymore so if i cant kill her i'll probably kill myself damn it! sigh but thats a sin too cos u're killing yourself. God has already planned our life for us... i wonder what i did to make me have such a mother. sometimes i really wonder why. at least daddy makes up for her... sigh :( if only i had a nicer mother. IF ONLY damn it. SHIT LIFE!!


daily reads.
// 17:36

daddy just called from Indonesia!!! hee :)


daily reads.
// 17:05

ohhh i bought my ripcurlgirl bag today... AHHH! pretty baby :) damn sis didnt wanna go cut hair with me... geez my hair is gettin outta shape so freakin ugly arghh. sighh quite tired.. hm. birthday is in one week and one day... kris and debs are gettin me a waterbottle... so happy :) havent gotten a birthday prezzie from friends for such a long time... haha. anywayy the wallet i thought was reaaaally beautiful is gone :( well it was expected i guess cos the wallet was so nice... found it on the aussie site... its called the enchanted wallet duh its so enchanting haha.... anyway the bag i bought is called free spirit haha pretty cool huh.. BLAH i want the wallet!! grr.




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